Comfort in the nook...

Ok I will start out apologizing for any typos. I am writing this on my iPhone as Lillian sleeps on me in the rocker.

Yesterday was a big day. The weather was gorgeous so Lillian and I went to the park. While we were there Lillian walked!! Ok it was only a couple of steps and then a crash to the ground, but it was so exciting!!! She also learned how to sign the word cheese.

It is funny how when you have children the simplest things become what's most important.

Ok now let's fast forward to today.

I have exciting news, my little business has now expanded to it's fourth store. I made a pretty good size wholesale order to "Growing Years" in Kensington, Maryland. They took me on as a new seller despite the fact that Lillian threw up all over her store. Yep, vomit all over me, Lillian, and the store. Thank goodness Sandra, the owner, is a mother for three.

Now we are home and as soon as we got here and we got cleaned up the phone rang. It was a real estate agent asking to show our house tomorrow. So, send out some prayers that Lillian will let me put her down long enough to get the house clean, she feels well enough to leave the house tomorrow, and most of all they love the house and want to buy it.

Other than all that I am just wondering if it makes me a bad mom that I do get a little pleasure when L isn't feeling well.

You see she cuddles. I mean really cuddles.

Her head just fits perfectly in that little nook on your neck 

 I think must have been made just for our babies heads.

You can feel her breath and it seems to melt into your own.

Your hearts beat together and for just a little while you feel connected. 

 You can just take them in every part of their essence. 

To know that you are a comfort and a safe place for them to go.

This is the closet you can get to that feeling of carrying them around those nine months.

So you see I do not wish for my sweet girl to be sick, but I do love the

stillness, closeness, and the power of that little nook in the neck.